Unbinding

Welcome to your Wednesday wellness reflection.

This week I find myself reflecting on all of our relations; those we know through our maternal and paternal blood lines, those we know in our blood, breath and bones, those we share the land with.

As I witness the unbinding of my mom, I am urged to reflect a little deeper on my own place in the world, and the stories that make up the web of my own life.

She has been fading for many years now, as Dementia steals the narrative of her life and with it parts of my own.

What makes it so difficult is their constant struggle and confusion, and the repeated goodbyes.  Over time your heart breaks a little more.   Never knowing if they’ll know who you are the next time you connect, if they’ll remember the sound of your voice, the stories you’ve shared or even your relation to them.

Sometimes, with hope in your heart, they’re back – often for a fleeting moment, and then they’re gone again.

Witnessing her journey, it reminds me how we ruminate over so many things, often things that in the grand scheme of a life lived, don’t really matter.  All of sudden, one day, all those worries unravel and disappear.

I think about those things so many of us dream about doing “one day”, the stories you intend to write through your life once you reach a certain stage, or simply “one day” – I beg you to consider to write the first word of that chapter today, even if you’re just taking a baby step in that direction.  Respecting your circumstances, make yourself your biggest priority, because one day, we’re all immersed in the big mystery – and those stories don’t have the opportunity to be written in the unique way you would have created them in this lifetime.

Honour the life you have been given, perhaps it’s not the most comfortable journey – but perhaps tomorrow you will take steps to better support yourself.  Maybe breaking patterns, maybe asking for help,  maybe taking the long talked about road less traveled – it exists.

Try not to regret your stories, rather learn from them.  Integrate the lessons from the challenges, and remember the joy found in those moments that were so beautiful you don’t even have words to reflect on them.  TRY if you can, to savour more of those moments and notice them when they arrive.

We’ve been through a hard story, that we all share the baseline to, let’s remember to listen to eachother and honour each other’s stories, as we start to come together in community again.  Reach out to those people that bring you peace and honour the core of  who you actually are.  DO those things you have always dreamt about starting – life is fragile and fleeting, I am acutely aware of this truth.

Remembering my mother’s stories, and the stories that created her foundation, also offers me a softness towards who she was and the life she lived, one I wish I could show her now.  We don’t always realize the gifts we were given until they are gone.

Sending you love on your journey

Amber

xo

Wishing you wellness in body, mind and spirit on your own unique journey, emerging in your own time and honouring the narrative of your life.

If you’d like to practice together, I offer weekly live online zoom classes, and as an additional support for you to practice on your own schedule, but together, I’ve created a video library and a monthly video subscription

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30 Days Of Yoga – Wednesday Wellness Reflection

Sat Naam and Namaste, welcome to the beginning of a 30 day yoga challenge – Revisited

Today we embark on 30 days of yoga together.  A year ago I put together a 30 day yoga challenge which started April 1st, 2020, I thought it was important to repost that challenge,  today April 14th and running through the next 30 days.   I first posted this offering at the beginning of COVID, and now we find ourselves in yet another 4 week stay at home order, with so much uncertain.  I am hopeful this somehow helps you through this time.  I invite you to rejoin me for the full 30 days, as a commitment to your own self care – or pop in for a day here or there.

I love looking back at our old studio, and my families old home when we lived in town, precious memories of a chapter in my own life.  Also the first videos I ever made, yes, it’s important to laugh with ourselves, and to find the sweetness in just showing up because you know it’s important, regardless of what IT looks like.

The intention for these mini yoga videos is to help support you.  We find ourselves in the midst of a  confusing time (still a year later), and I think I can safely say, from day to day, our emotions are all over the place – this is normal and understandable given our current situation, please be gentle with yourself.  Globally, we are all affected and I think there are times we feel the collective levels of anxiety, fear, hurt, grief and sadness. We are living in a world, and a time, of so many unknowns where each of us have been affected in our day to day rhythms.

Embrace the moments where you do feel peace, where you experience the joy and miracle of life, the moments when you feel inspired at next steps in your own life, where you feel steady and filled with hope for what is on the other side.

Yoga may not be something you are leaning into right now, and if this period in the history of your life is calling for a break from your practice than you need to honour that.  You also need to honour whatever it is that is helping to hold you and bring you back to your center.

A year ago I decided to commit to 30 days of providing you with little 5 – 20 minute practices, my personal commitment is what’s kept me okay during this time.  The practices I offer you here area all accessible yoga, movement, focused postures, pranayama and meditations – each chosen to help to build your resilience, to help ground you, bring you back to your center, nurture your nervous system, and to support you to invite daily movement into your body, and to remind you you’re not alone.  This yoga challenge is my way of extending my support out to you in your homes during this time of social distancing and self isolation.

Please join me for the next 30 days (or every couple of days), I’m going to be practicing right alongside you, revisiting this support, made a year ago.

These videos were created April – 2020: (Please be kind, this were my FIRST ever yoga videos, all these videos were recorded at our old place in Almonte, in the forest and in the old studio space.  As I too dive into this 30 day commitment, I am in awe as my sons look so young – amazing so much change in a year and all the places those changes are reflected)

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There are many health and wellness guardians here in Almonte (and all over the globe for that matter), I am so grateful for the work everyone is doing to help support one another.  Taking this time to really accept all the changes and Keep moving forward.

As a result of all the changes this pandemic has brought, including our Heritage Court doors closing and our collective of teachers doing what they needed to personally to do move through this time, Surya Daya  has definitely seen some transitions.  I’m now offering an online yoga studio, video subscriptions, a hub for my upcoming breast health offerings, a supportive blog, personal one – on – one yoga therapy sessions, outdoor and nature based yoga,  work with hospice and Carebridge, I’ve recommitted to my massage practice, and working on a few projects – all around having my boys home.  Thank you for being on this journey with me, I am excited to see how we continue to evolve over time, and grow together as a community.

One day I dream of us finding a community space again, a healing safe hub, I keep that vision alive in my heart.

Yours in health and happiness, with so much love and gratitude,

Amber

If you’d like to practice with me I teach weekly live online zoom classes , and as an additional support for you to practice on your own schedule I’ve created a video library and a monthly video subscription

Don’t ever hesitate to reach out, my support is here holding you in my heart.